Astronaut (Something About Your Love)

The things that I used to love, treasure, about our relationship now cut through me, sharp, painful, tragic.  I loved when he added songs to our list, it meant that he was thinking of me.  I know that I have said he should just delete now, it is cruel.  But for three months, there was silence, other playlists were created, with some overlap of my songs.  I can look at this from both sides, first knowing that he is moving on and I need to forget, heal.  However, my obsessive nature, my overthinking side, makes me aware that everyday that goes by when he doesn’t think of me, remember, takes another piece of me.  I want to believe that I was more than a casual affair, something that passed the time.  Three months to the day, and there is something new.  Why do I look, why do I care?  I sorta have someone who cares for me but has his own set of emotional barriers and will never be completely mine.  I question my own motives, am I purposely looking for someone who will never be available?  He said he doesn’t hear the lyrics, just the notes, how they are put together, how the flow through you, make you feel something.  To this day, I’m still not sure I believe that. Is he thinking of me now?

Astronaut (Something About Your Love), Mansionair